I feel like I'm a Burden to Others
Kirsty came to me in a very low state. She had been suffering from depression for a number of years. Three years ago the depression got worse and she took an overdose of tablets. Fortunately, she was very sick and although she was out of it for a day, she recovered. None of her family found out about it so she felt she had got away with it.
However, a few months later her marriage went wrong and she decided to take her own life again. However, again she survived. Kirsty spent time in a Mental Health Residential Facility for a couple of weeks and found the strength to face the break up of her marriage. With great regret she decided to bring things to a close. This was tough as they had been together since being young teenagers and had two grown up children together. Kirsty thought that everyone would hate her as she had been the one who had been unfaithful and she blamed herself for the break up. There were a lot of feelings of regret and shame.
Lots of People Care About Me
Kirsty said she had lots of friends and was a caring person who liked to help others and would support them when they needed it. Lots of her friends cared about her and were asking after her. However, in this depressed state Kirsty was unable to respond to their kindness and just wanted to be left alone. She would sit and do puzzles all day or watch endless daytime TV. She did not like the quiet. At work she was distracted and sad, she knew she was not doing a good job and consequently felt even more guilt and worried about letting her colleagues down.
At the point when I first met Kirsty she had been taking the antidepressant Citalopram for 18 months and previous to that had been taking Fluoxetine (Prozac) on and off for the last 8-9 years. These drugs had not enabled her to feel less depressed. I think that antidepressants like these can be helpful for short term periods of anxiety or depression. However, long term use often leaves the patient feeling boxed in and unable to express their feelings. These drugs have the effect of suppressing emotions; emotions that I believe need to be dealt with in order for the person to become healthy. This can sound a bit scary, if you are a long term sufferer of depression. However, the right homeopathic remedy allows the patient to gently come to terms with their inner turmoil and in most cases they can reach a place of calm and peace in a very natural way.
How Did Homeopathy Help Her?
In a case like this the homeopath has to first consider what is the most challenging aspect of the situation, and in Kirsty's case it had to be her repeated desire to commit suicide. Although this is a very urgent and acute situation, because of the severity of her symptoms, it is in some ways easier to make a decision about which remedy to use. There are only a few remedies which deal with suicidal feelings. These are Aurum, Aurum Muriaticum, Natrum Sulph and Psorinum. Other remedies feature but not as strongly.
Because Kirsty had a great deal of remorse, regret and feelings of low self worth, Aurum was in fact a good remedy to start with. So we began with Aurum in LM potency which she took on a daily basis.
The Second Visit
When Kirsty returned after one month of taking Aurum she said she felt a bit better and was more able to do things. She was trying to get out and see her friends, which previously had been too much, just preferring to shut herself away.
So the beginnings of change had occurred and I knew this was a good remedy for her. I gave her another month of the same remedy at a higher potency.
The Third Visit
The moment I saw Kirsty I knew something massive had changed. She looked like a different women, confident, attractive and engaged with life. She said that she felt brilliant. She was out beach combing during the day and becoming creative again. Her friends and family could not believe the change. She had booked a holiday abroad and she was also enjoying listening to music again. Previously she had found music made her feel sad so she didn't listen much.
For me this was a lovely case. The remedy worked for Kirsty very quickly and she was well again after only 3 visits. We agreed that she would contact me again if she felt the need but for now she was more than happy to finish treatment.
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